im sincerly sorry to have spoilt anyone mood’s by reading this.
but it’s my blog afterall.
im not someone who’d hide away and not voice what i think when i feel that its important to voice it out.

There are certain things i dont bother to explain. anymore.

cuz reasons mainly that its already OVER and there’s not point taking it out again for discussion.
i’ve thought it over and do you think i’ve not come to the same conclusions?

im sorry that people out there deem me as someone unreasonable and irrational or imature cuz im HIDING.
fuck.
im not HIDING.
dammit.
fuck.

it HURTS when i hear that.
esp when it comes from you.
it really does.
IM NOT.
IM NOT A COWARD.
THINGS ARENT AS YOU DEEM IT AS.
IM NOT A COWARD.
I NEED A BREAK ALSO.
IM HUMAN ALSO.
IM MADE OF FLESH AND BLOOD ALSO.
I DONT WANT TO BE ALL SANE AND RATIONAL AT ALL TIMES ALSO.

am i to be blamed for wanting needing a break for ONE FULL DAY only?

Words gets misinterpreted most oftenly even if they’re said face to face.
im tired of needing to explain myself.

dont presume you guys know what am i upset about or whatever.
im not saying that you guys are wrong but,
there are certain problems which i need to solve myself.
mental barriers i need to cross myself.

it’s not really helping by seeing people anyone give me the “im so dissappointed by you” look.

arghs. fuck it.

im trying to explain cuz YOU ARE SOMEONE IMPORTANT TO ME.
do i need to repeat it any further?
do i sound as if im lying?
or am i so insincere?
or fake?

am i really such a person to you?
do i seem like someone who’s like this?

perhaps its juz pms or life getting to me,
but it really does hurt alot sometimes.

i’d get over it.
i’d clear my thoughts.
i’d be rational and reason it out in my mind.

if you deem it as imature,
please, then, ALLOW ME THIS CHANCE to be imature.
cuz i dont feel that anyone is trying to understand anyway.
most just decided they know what is going on.
they assume/presume they know.
THEY DONT KNOW HOW WRONG THEY ARE.

an advice from someone.
ASSUME-ing makes and ASS out of U and ME.

i WILL be better. -cuz i had always been-
im stronger than you believe me to be.
but.
please.
give me some time.
please.
and.
please.
dont give me the “im so dissappointed” look cause it’s killing me.
please.
it really is.

please.