“Leave the world outside”

while on the bus ride home today, was listening to this song while looking at the heavy rain outside. absolutely beautiful… suddenly had the urge to walk in the rain, something which I’ve not done for a long time. just suddenly had the urge… cuz it reminded me of certain stuffs… just like the rain also.

haven been blogging much these few days. had always opened the blogger page to create a new post.. yet left it blank there… this post too… was left blank for few hours before i came back here. not because i’m having the urge to write or whatsoever. just felt i needed to write something down.

not leaving a note when one visits… i guess it’s become a habit of many… the statics are slowly climbing… you get the feeling of someone being around, reading and taking everything in… but there’s no visable trace left by the visitor. seems imaginary, seems like a dream which was weaved upon emptiness. at least, to me, it felt like this.

seeing… loved ones suffering… knowing that they are suffering yet chosing the hard way out… hopelessly watching them get hurt yet you cant do anything. plainly worrying for the person till it hurts so much that you dont feel like caring anymore. going it thru again and again once more. hiakhiak.

Dearly Missed, love.