Sometimes , times like this make it tougher than ever. Sometimes I just feel lonely and sad and incoherent. Sometimes I struggle deep into the middle of the night. Sometimes, or mostly,  I just feel vastly insufficient. Unwanted. Lost. Like I’m not enough. Like I’m never enough.   Never enough for you. Never enough for […]

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during the days where time does not pause, it runs and leaves you chasing.   when the emotions protest and put on a demonstration, refusing to be ignored. when the skies are undecided on what’s the next shade of color to take on. when the sound of your heartbreak grows louder than the rain drops […]

帶走迴盪的回憶

      this endlessness that we peruse, where there is no end to the tunnel, no sounds of the winds, no shades of the skies, no whiffs of happiness. this endlessness.   just crossing my fingers hoping that it brings me to you.

don’t wanna be lonely just wanna be yours

내 심장소릴 들어봐 제멋대로 널 부르잖아     It’s dangerous how wrecked I am  Save me because I can’t get a grip on myself

timing and fate

  Fate doesn’t come around at any time. At the very least, to use the term fate, it has to be a dramatic moment brought by coincidence. That’s what makes it fate. That’s why, another term for fate, is timing.  But fate and timing aren’t just coincidences that find you. They are products of earnest, […]

stuck in reverse

when you want someone to want you back so much the way you want them.   sometimes you confuse me. with your smile. that smile that makes me off kilter. sometimes i pause and take a deep breath before talking to you, preparing my heart for that smile. sometimes the feels are illogical and it […]

most of the time

I just try, very very hard to pretend everything is alright. that we are barely scraping through all of it. even when there are times when I have so much to say but I can’t find any words for it.

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it’s the time of the month when you are so confused of what the hormones are demanding for and tired of all the bullshit that you are putting yourself into.   wanting to cry when there are no tears and wanting to laugh when all you can do is cry.   life’s too tough for […]

#projectworkplayeat

such a peculiar feeling of working by the beach. or seeing nearly your entire office at a resort setting. or seeing your boss right after you step out of your room. some people say it’s a luxury but otherwise it’s quite weird being here when I can be at somewhere else being half naked and […]

My mission was always about running away

    You, who is more courageous than anyone, loved me, who is more cowardly than anyone. I want to thank you and apologize to you. if you are reading this will, I, the cowardly one, will remain as a painful memory until the end. Do not forgive me. As much as I hope so, […]